if you take the chance to trust me,

i will not fear what i can build in your world.

i worry too often, or at least for someone who has most of their lives sorted.

i worry about my family.

i worry about my friends.

i worry about tomorrow, and the day before.

i worry about drinking too much coffee.

i worry about sleeping.

i worry about how my shirt looks at the end of the day,

when all the worried wrinkles show.

i worry about the lack of experience in my fingers

when i try to play my guitar.

i worry about my phone.

i worry about recycling.

i worry about people liking me,

then i turn around and worry about worrying about people liking me too much.

mostly, i worry about myself.

i worry about when i will get there.

i worry about how i will get there.

i worry if i will find what it is that escapes me.

some days i notice myself making a list obsessively,

and i wonder why a 24 year old guy with an entire life to live

worries so much about everything.

i become tangled inside, a knot of anxiety

and fear of not knowing about most things.

"when i was young, i didn't know too much/

i used to think that i could rule the world.

then i grew up and found out life was hard/

harder than stone."

i think the reason why i find myself attracted to grounded people

is that i envy them, and i wish that i could stick myself firmly to this world

like they do. i suppose more than anything i need someone to count on

when i find that i am too confused about life.

the only problem is, i find stability to be awfully dull.